Category: mental-health
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Dark Thoughts
I woke up from a bad dream–a really bad one–and my anxiety immediately went through the roof. Why is this? Why can’t I get control over it? Why can my conscious mind not reason away the doubts and fears created by my subconscious mind? Why do I allow the dark thoughts of night to seep…
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BEautiful Chaos
Do not adjust your glasses or worry about mine. There is no error in the title. Read on… The leaves are falling all around us, the wind is blowing debris here and there. If you don’t know what to look for, the world can seem chaotic and somewhat pointless. Let me tell you what I…
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Eat Lunch Alone
Over several decades, I spent time in Hollywood learning how to look and sound and be everything that the entertainment industry compelled me to be, in order to be successful. It turned out to be a total crock of sh*t! There was a book that became popular which compelled people to never dine alone. Its…
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Bend or Break
An Object Lesson on Dealing with Opposition The other day, my mom said to me, “You’re so resilient.” Cognitively, I know this is true but my battered self-esteem chooses not to believe it. I don’t feel resilient. I feelbeaten. Perception is everything. From where she was standing, I appeared strong but when I saw my…
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So I Left
Photo Credit: Jim Towns Today marks fifteen years since I began my crawl to freedom from an eighteen-year abusive relationship. People who know me, have heard me mention this before but most people don’t know why I left or what led up to me leaving. I have never told this story before. Every time I…
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Get Back Up
Do you know what a Virginia opossum, a Hognose snake, and some rabbits have in common? Their default defense mechanism, when fearing/feeling attacked, is to “play dead”. As humans, the inclination toward this behavior can be compelling but the end result is usually not so favorable. While many of us want to avoid conflict and…
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When Should You Walk Away
Have you ever noticed how you can break a bone or get a huge gash and it’s not nearly as impactful as a smaller, less serious injury? My nail broke–not a real problem–and it hurts so much that it’s become a distraction. I almost feel embarrassed to admit that it’s even bothering me, let alone…
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Running On Fire
Lately, I’ve been feeling like I’m running–as though I were on fire. I’m in a constant state of panic, working hard to get ahead, trying to keep creditors at bay, and trying not to have a total meltdown in the process. The crazy thing is that, if I were on fire, running would be the…
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I Have PTSD
I know a lot of people struggle with this disorder (aka syndrome). I know most don’t understand it. I know that I am not the only person who feels this way. I hope my candor can bring you freedom. You are not alone. *If you are struggling and/or having thoughts of suicide, please text or…
